You should be strong and stay alive they say.

You can’t allow whatever you are going through to pull you down they say.

You haven’t done anything for the Lord on this earth yet.

You first got to do what the Lord has called you to do.

There’s a reason why you are on this earth in the first place

Fullfil your destiny

Pull yourself together, focus and do what you must do

But there is something that they don’t know.

There is something they don’t see something they don’t understand.

They don’t know that I’m trying…I’m trying to stay strong

I’m trying to stay alive!

I’m trying to have a positive mindset!

I’m trying and I’m giving it my all.

But I’m just so tired…I’m tired of trying to stay strong.

I’m emotionally, spiritually and physically TIRED!

I’m drained.

All my life I had to fight for everything that I wanted and I’m still fighting for the things I want.

I’m tired to fight.

Why do I have to fight so hard for everything that I want and need?

Why do I have to work 10 times harder?

Why do I always have to prove myself?

I’m tired of this life…I’m tired of this world.

I’m tired of everything.

I just don’t have the strength to continue fighting.

I’ve lost a lot yeah I’ve completely lost myself.