WARNING: This piece contains descriptions of sexual abuse.
From the moment you said hurtful things in a playful way,
Sometimes rolling the strands of my hair and patting my back
I knew I should’ve kept away from you.
You hissed nasty words behind my ear like a snake ready to attack a mouse,
Yes I was a mouse
Scared and caught up in this place
But sometimes I felt comfort but at most felt threatened.
I know I should’ve kept far away from you
when you hit me once and said it’s a mistake never to be done again.
Self proclaimed the Son of God who went around beating helpless, powerless women, (sighs)
I had no power the only power I had was to apologize
If what for is what I don’t know
But I came back again like a superball,
Leaving and getting back to the palm of your hands.
I knew I should’ve kept far away from you
When you dictated my life
From how to dress to how to smile.
I was a guitarist
Slowly trying to strike the right keys
While moving my body in a peculiar way just so you could hit every corner of my walls,
I let you in but I didn’t wanna let you in,
You raped me (sighs).
Call 911 I have an emergency ,
I have committed a crime
Ended my life the only thing that’s left is an image.
I have teared off the walls of my vagina, call 9111
Tell them I’ve committed a crime by committing myself to a barbarian and
I set myself on fire by staying under painfu words and a savage man.