For not loving you

The way you wanted to be loved.

For putting myself first when

I should have done the contrary.

Forgive me for treating you like my past.

What was I supposed to do?

I am wreck,

I’ve got deep wounds.

Yes, people aren’t the same but

My mind kept on reminding me

“Be careful, don’t love too much”

Once bitten twice shy,

I kept everything inside,

Fear of loosing you.

My world be collapsing on me,

I had to pretend like

Nothing has happened and laugh

Like everything is running smoothly.

Meanwhile I still need to fix myself.

From the inside,

because outside

Can be fixed by fake it,

till you make it.

Then my wounds,

scares from the inside

Left unattended.

I apologise for not

Sharing all of this with you,

felt like I am burden

To your perfect life and I couldn’t fit.

I wish to tell you each and every day,

About how much

I LOVE YOU!

My love was not expressed more than enough.

Being dubious accompanied by fear

Astray me to withdraw affection.

Forgive me,

for what I am about to do.

Forgive me,

and know my love for you

Was genuine but kept it all from the inside.

With the fear of loosing you,

Once again forgive me for all

My imperfections,

I don’t know what I am doing

But it feels right,

With you by my side.

Here’s my unending love

Screaming your name.