When I close my eyes,
I still see myself sitting at a corner,
My hands covering my ears,
My head placed on my knees,
My eyes flowing like a river,
And my heart racing first place.
I still hear her screams in my head,
I still hear the sound of the slaps,
I hear her choking and forcing a scream,
I still remember the way he pushed her to
The ground and promised to kill her.
I remember the way
He shouted her name,
And how he banged the door,
Out of anger.
I still remember the whole conversation
From the other side of the room.
I still hear the glass shattering and,
Her blood flowing through the bathroom sink.
Even Today I remember how she sat in front of the mirror,
I remember how she nursed her bruises,
I remember how she applied makeup to
Hide her misery.
I remember how she wore a smile and pretended
As if life was perfect.
Even Today: I can’t get rid of the memories.
Even Today: I can’t bear the sound of screams.
Even Today: I have to deal with the trauma.
Even Today: I’m still thanking God for keeping her alive.