The feeling of hatred

The emptiness and lack of emotion

Well, here’s the life of a depressed kid

The unwanted ness at the moment

Feeling like a baby without its candy

The moment when they ask

“ARE YOU OKAY?”

The tears start building up and

It starts falling on your clothes

Red eyes and crazy headaches

The pain I feel no one can compare

A fake smile is considered my normal smile

Real funny how no one knows the real me

The moment of guilt

Then afterwards apologise

To think I feel like this for a minor thing

Depending on pills for sleep and

Depending on shedding for happiness

It’s funny how I might be addicted

Or how I like the feeling of sadness

Many overlook this, but I don’t

Listening to music is like medication

Taking medication is like my drug

I might overdose; who knows

The pills care as they are there

Every anxiety attack proves my helplessness

Panic attacks are regular; it’s like breathing

As I stare at the sealing

I wonder if I will ever introduce to me

Not my alias, just plain old me

Who knows, you might like her

Unlike the person in her mirror

She is who I wanna be, and this is my apology