The feeling of hatred
The emptiness and lack of emotion
Well, here’s the life of a depressed kid
The unwanted ness at the moment
Feeling like a baby without its candy
The moment when they ask
“ARE YOU OKAY?”
The tears start building up and
It starts falling on your clothes
Red eyes and crazy headaches
The pain I feel no one can compare
A fake smile is considered my normal smile
Real funny how no one knows the real me
The moment of guilt
Then afterwards apologise
To think I feel like this for a minor thing
Depending on pills for sleep and
Depending on shedding for happiness
It’s funny how I might be addicted
Or how I like the feeling of sadness
Many overlook this, but I don’t
Listening to music is like medication
Taking medication is like my drug
I might overdose; who knows
The pills care as they are there
Every anxiety attack proves my helplessness
Panic attacks are regular; it’s like breathing
As I stare at the sealing
I wonder if I will ever introduce to me
Not my alias, just plain old me
Who knows, you might like her
Unlike the person in her mirror
She is who I wanna be, and this is my apology