Told her how I felt and
now I feel sorry for myself.
how must I face her
which direction must I get to her.
I complicated things.
why did I ask for her ear.
To be honest I’m lost
through her I thought i found myself a host
through her I felt like my heavenly gate was open
my feelings were safe
my opinion was not to be judged
I fell in love agin. I felt our hearts connection.
To myself I lied but to her
I created a disconnection.
I hate how pressured I am.
I hate how lonely I feel
how deep in thought I am
I ruined everything.
I broke the trust she had
the amount of freedom she felt.
the comfort she cherished.
I am a fool. I should have iced my notions.
silenced my imaginations
killed my desires and buried my goals.
I am supposed to be her nail not her tail
I am supposed to be her sky not my own fairytale
but fooled by my emotions I left my comfort zone,
I barked how I felt and carelessly opened fire
am I a fool to arrest myself or
a genius to confess
her silence left my bones tense
her contact became a witness to us being friends not a lover I dream of her to be.