My mind has always been the wildest. I have always imagined the impossible and right now I seem to have fallen in the same pit again. By writing this down I am hoping it will free my mind and spirit. This is the most beautiful love I have experienced so far in my mind. 

The fantasy I live in right now is beautiful. I am madly in love with a person who does not even know I exist and will never notice me. I lie to myself every second hoping that he might have even the slightest hint of who I am.

To be honest it is a joke and quiet an excruciating pain. I have put myself through the worst for nothing. I have imagined this person being my everything, even the reason for enduring living in this cruel world and yet she will never notice me nor will she know who I ever was. 

I do not know how to forget her because I believe what I feel for her is real, at least to me, even though it is one sided. I love her, it is crazy I know but I am only being truthful to myself and God knows how much and often I think of her. I believe she crosses my mind at least a thousand times a second. I know what you’re thinking right now, thousand times a second might seem extreme, exaggerated and unreal but it is true, that is how much my mind is consumed by her.

And that is how much I have loved her but I have to set myself free and experience a world without her since she is never going to be a part of me anyway. 

With true love and sincere desire,

Your crush.