Wish I could know how to end this pain inside of me. How I wish I could take short cut from all the pain am feeling. Have you ever went through a breakup with someone you really loved and how did you feel? I mean I can’t spend a day without thinking about our breakup, the words she used to say to me.

How do I say all of this without making other people to say “we all have problems dear to deal with so toughen up.” I am not looking for attention I just want to cry without being judged. Wish I was not afraid of death but too still can’t remove the pain inside of me. How I cry all night still wake up into another questions in my mind that I can’t answer myself.

Sometime I wish like I had been granted a wish I would not curse my relationship but bless it to nourish more. But that’s all in tales this is really life real pain. Sad, I can’t spend my day without looking at your pictures and let my foolish mind drive me back to our memories.well I always acted tough around you because I didn’t want you to see the weak me. I was not acting but having you around really made me feel stronger. I always had my high up even in the dark now I don’t even have strength to face light. You were my second role model.

The way you always dreamt big and took your school work serious. I knew I had a leader inside of me, but you took that away from me. The joy, the happiness and being alive inside. I really miss you soo much but my mind tells me to leave you wish my heart said the same. Wish I could be better from all this pain.