I often wake up at 5:30 am to get my daughter ready for school so I cannot really say that waking up is an issue and I also tried selling twister sandwiches whereby I would wake up at exactly 3 am to prepare them and still I cannot confidently say that laziness is also an issue. What bothers me is that I graduated after years of hard work and enduring through failures but still two years later after graduation I still fail to secure work, as much as I apply for any kind of job including that which I studied for I still do not get it, maybe it is my approach of applying I thought and I tried to change that approach by revamping my cv and even going to hand deliver my applications instead of applying online but still that did not help, I have heard of people sharing of how they have forwarded over a hundred applications to no luck of being employed or even being rejected and today at this moment I can unfortunately also share that it is my sad bitter reality.

I have been sending applications to a point where I even wondered if God really exist, I have suffered all types of breakdowns where I would go at public places sit and just cry, all hope lost drained in each and every way scared to share my experiences with friends in the same field because they are busy succeeding whilst I am here hoping to be called for a mere interview, who wants to be judged as a failure by their peers that is the harsh reality I was not ready to face. Already the mother who did not raise me but controlling me simply because of a mere plate of food she provides see a failure in me but she could not care less for as long as I slave away to clean her house while she go out to drink and have fun, I just wish I had parents who at least showed emotional support maybe this life would have been easy.

Looking at societal problems such as drugs, alcohol, prostitution, crime etc one cannot be surprised at the root of all this because people want to work and there are no jobs, businesses have collapsed due to the outbreak of the pandemic and this was a very clear example that not everyone can become an entrepreneur as most companies did not have plans. Trying to fight your way through trying to uplift yourself is very difficult as life of being unemployed brings nothing but misery, no one respects you or takes you seriously because you just live life of penury and handouts and cannot provide for yourself or your children, no one listens to what you have to say as everything is considered invalid “how dare you say anything of value while you cannot even help or save yourself”.

Your mind plays games with you one second you are happy and the next thoughts of turmoil come in, you subconsciously end up believing and taking in all the negative thoughts your mind place in your life and once that happens not only are you faced with your reality of being unemployed but are also faced with the depression that you ended up consuming due to idling and not doing anything but applying and applying without any positive feedback, you are no longer a hopeful graduate but a hopeless graduate who is reaching a point of insanity at the thought that life is nothing but a misery no joy in living it is very painful to not be able to contribute anything to yourself, your kids or family it is a shameful life. It is very sad to be labelled as useless it is even harsher to even look at other people progressing while you are stuck in one place, watching your child being taken care of when all you do is provide love, care etc which at the end of the day is not enough as a child needs all those things including finances as a child cannot eat or wear love.

This disease(unemployment) have consumed communities and the youth and though I have lost faith in prayer I speak power to whoever is listening to these words to help fight this disease before it continues killing the next generation like it did with mine, I speak practical intervention to eradicate and forever wipe this disease, It is also about time to help and advice people on practical solution instead of throwing ucalled for judgments, an unemployed person is already hard on themselves the best you can do is try to understand them and really help where you can and putting unnecessary pressure or hurling insults and inconsiderate names does not help it instead contribute to this disease, be kind and humble always.