I’ve met this guy on a social media .I was on unstable relationship so I added him so we could be in love triangle .within few weeks I wanted to cut him off because am not good on cheating so I let it go.i dumped him .He said something that I couldn’t understand whether he was saying out of anger or he was actually a cheat. However the guy I was actually dating wasn’t dating me, he was healing by me.Rebound hell yess!! I was actually a rebound I started regretting leaving a guy who loved me because I didn’t wanted to cheat on the guy who doesn’t love me at all.i had to return back to the guy I dumped and apologized, he was still patiently waiting for me .he accepted me with open arms.Finally I will now settle down .

I’ve been searching for a good guy who would love me wholeheartedly. Our relationship lighten up .we started talking non stop 24/7 video calls …even when he is bathing .I went over to his place one night to spend at his place after work so ,I felt awkward he was definitely hiding me but I let it slide.our first night was scary but I felt what I’ve never felt after a very long time.The satisfaction ,burning desires and reaching climax after so many years .I was at peace ,I was in love but the only problem was the red flags I get when I go to his place ,I felt he was hiding something I was right .The guy had kept heels and towels in his room.Another day I had find out and later on many secrets unfold but he promised to end it all and saying later on the girl came to collect her things.He later on began to call me the mother of his children saying that he impregnated me and our baby will be called Tshedza “light” .

I still remember very well when he went to mpumalanga for work I didn’t know it will be The last days to see ,to talk to hold him .The father of my unborn child swallowed by unknown . Was he a human ?did he existed? was he a ghost? .I still ask myself one question where will I find him .what will I narrate to my son about his father.A man who never made me cry

A man who would lie but I could still laugh and tell when he lie Uatshila “He is alive”a young prophet from Mangondi who would tell me everything about his life like I was his best friend .I kept asking myself what sin I’ve committed that he would abandoned me like this .

I’ve loved him ,cared for him and I was always there for him.Out of all people, I wanted to know what have I done wrong.if my baby asked me about him will I tell that his dad was adopted ,that he grew up in an orphanage ,his dad rejected him and his mom ,narrate all he narrated to me .

Where will I start what will I say to my baby.Should I tell him how I waited for his dad to call me again.His last words were my phone burst ! I won’t be able to communicate but don’t worry I will make a plan and get in touch with you …that was his last words

I never get to see him again or to talk to him ever again.i was abandoned with my pregnancy by a man who never shouted ,showed resent or remorse of being with me .By a man who always showed me with love time and respect. My new found hope extinguished like a grooming candlestick in the darkest room .

<I woke up from this nightmare > it was just a dream