Growing up ,I’ve always been that girl who never believed in love,well to be exact falling in love.The main reason was never there but I never wanted to be in love with someone else.Yes so many guys did approach me here and there but I still rejected them why because I didn’t want to fall in love.One would say maybe I’ve been hurt by some guy that I don’t want to go out with other guys well to be honest with you I don’t have any ex’s or some skeletons in my closet.Well some thought maybe am in love with another gender but no I just didn’t want to be in a relationship.My friends would usually say I don’t have feelings because they never understood why I never wanted to be in a relationship as they have never seen me with a guy before or they would sometimes say I am afraid of guys well they said all they could thinking I would change my mindset but their words would get in one ear and get out in the other ear.Well girls my age have been in relationships that has made them the happiest girls alive some were even traumatized by this relationships .Well me not wanting to be in love doesn’t not mean I am encouraging all girls follow in my footsteps but we are all different in our own ways and you can never be me.Well I think the main reason why I’ve never been in love was that I am an overthinker, I sometimes believe that nothing good comes out in a relationship well that’s my opinion .Falling in love or even getting in a relationship for me I feel like it will require me a lot,I feel like it will drain all my strength and I will be powerless.I am a girl who believes in independency so I feel like getting in a relationship will take my vision away,like I will not be able to follow my dreams if I ever try to fall in love or even get in a relationship.”Do I sometimes dream of being in a relationship?Yes I do but I don’t want to experience that in real life”.Some would say dreaming is pointless if not achieved,well I would rather keep on dreaming but getting in a relationship for me in reality will be such hard work.Or some would even say like my friends who would say I am afraid of “reality”.Well reality does hit hard that’s why I tend to be afraid of it.Some relationships tend to bring the good out of you while some would turn you in to the monster you never thought you would be.I am happy for those who are doing pretty good in their relationships and to those who feel like their current relationships are traumatizing them or making them feel useless I think it about time you get out as soon as you could and find something better.No childhood trauma made me not fall in love or even not get in a relationship but it is just a decision I made on my own.