I can’t believe that I cried the last time I saw her; maybe I cried because I realised that I have lost her for good. Brenda, that was her name, she was the love of my life if I could say. She was very sad, disappointed and hurt that I had cheated on her with some newbie in our neighbourhood, named Cindy. I have been with Brenda as far more than a year, and the fact that someone new came and took her place from me really cut her deep.

She had found out that I’m cheating with the help of her friends who were secretly stalking and spying on me. “Can I see you, baby?” I asked, through Facebook messenger; “I don’t know, maybe I’ll be busy” that was the response I got from her. “Please try to see me, I beg you; I miss you so much”, I said. As we were chatting; she said something that stimulated the conscience inside of me. “Lachlan, you hurt me and that kills me because I trusted you. You promised to never do it to me”. That’s when I realised that she has found out about everything.

“Forgive me”, I said.”I can’t, you broke your promise”. I thought that maybe if I request for her to come to see me, she will because of course she does still love me; just that her trust’s broken. “Come see me at my house, I just want to talk to you, facially,” I said, with my face full of compassion. “Okay, I will try coming”. For I called her, not knowing that I’m bringing trouble; that death is knocking on the door.

I sat in my bed, lost and drowning in my thoughts; a hard knock on the door brought me back to reality. “Come open this door”, her voice pierced through the thin door of my room”. “I am coming, can’t you be patient?”; I said, standing up from the bed, and walking to the door to open it for her. “TALK!”, she said as she entered the room. “Forgive me, baby, it wasn’t my intention to break your heart”. We argued for quite a while, she really did not want to take me back.

Remember the time she knocked? She disturbed me from my suicidal thoughts. “Brenda, if I cannot have you then no one will, “I said, she raised her voice; “What do you want from me Lachlan? You broke your promise, and now you expect me to just forgive and forget? Damn! I gave you my all L, committed myself to you; now you want me to just forget?”. “You love me, I love you, then why don’t we just fix things?” I asked with my lips trembling, I had just realized that I really broke her and there’s nothing I can do about it.

“I will never get back with you! Go to hell, I will learn to live without you; I will move on and you will move on too, you and I are over”, she said, these words possessed my mind with demonic thoughts. I took three steps back to my bed and put my hand under my pillow; took out a gun. I believed that shooting yourself in the head was the easiest way to die, “And where are you taking that?”, she was trembling and her voice was down. “If I cannot have you then no one will, I am nothing without you. Even death cannot separate us, we die together”.

I did not hesitate to cock the gun in my hand, what I was not believing was that I was crying. Lachlan, crying for a woman? Am I that weak? These thoughts were running up and down my mind. I guess they are the ones that made me pull the trigger. “DO NOT do this L!” for she did not know that nothing at this point would change my mind. 

‘Pow! Pow! Pow!’ Those were gunshots after I pulled the trigger, three shots entered her thick skull, now, it was my turn to die; I pulled the trigger once. I died, not even death was able to separate us; we were soulmates, and soulmates belong together. I am now dead; all because of a woman. I cried, I died; all because of her. I cannot believe it.