WARNING This piece refers to suicide.
There was a girl who was called Filomena which means “loved one”. She was doing grade 10. She was dark in colour and had scars on her face. Filomena lives with her mother in Durban and she comes from a rich family. She was good at mathematics and she was someone who love writing and reading poems.

Filomena had friends at school and her friends really enjoyed spending time together. Her mother was a strict person, she didn’t want Filomena to have friends the only thing she wanted was for her daughter to focus on her books and stay at home but Filomena loved her friends. She only saw her friends at school since her mother did not want her to have friends. People did not understand her because sometimes she is quiet and sometimes she is very rude but her friend who was closer to her was Catia; her name meant “pure”. Catia was a kind person but Filomena’s friends didn’t like her.

One day Filomena meets a boy at school who was called Asher which means “happy”. Filomena fell in love with Asher, she knew he had a girlfriend. Asher loved Filomena as a friend but Filomena wanted more than that. She started buying gifts and she would but launch for him. She loved him to the point where she would do anything to make him love her. Asher’s friends always laughed at Filomena because she had scars on her face, they were calling her names behind her back. She waited for Asher to tell her that he love her but Asher loved his girlfriend so he wasn’t interested in dating her. She decided to tell him that she have feelings for him and Asher didn’t say anything but he kissed her not because he love her but because Filomena always buy things for him.

They started dating but he did not love her. One day Asher lost his phone and Filomena started getting bored at home since she had no one to chat with. She took her mother’s phone and gave it to her boyfriend. Her mother was confused and keep on asking questions to herself, “who took my phone?… but my daughter is not a thief then who else?” talking to herself. She asked her daughter and Filomena lied to her mother. Her mother believed her and thought maybe she dropped it in a taxi. Asher was so happy and didn’t even ask her where she get the phone from. 

After a few days, Asher was tired of pretending so he wanted to break up with Filomena but she refused because she believes that she is ugly if she breaks up with him no one would love her. That night she slept at Asher’s home. Asher was busy chatting with his girlfriend on Facebook and didn’t even bother to give Filomena attention. She felt lonely and she went to sleep. When Asher was done chatting with his girlfriend he told Filomena that she should sleep with him if she doesn’t want them to break up. Filomena was scared because it was her first time and she told him that they should use protection but he refused.
 
The following day, they woke up in the morning and went to school. Filomena told Catia about what happened and her friend advised her to go to the clinic after school but Filomena got angry at her. After school, she went home and her mother was worried and angry. She shouted at her and took her phone but she didn’t care about anything. Her mother was disappointed and hurt from that day she saw that she had changed.

The next day Asher broke up with her but her friend Catia was there to support her. After two months her body changed and her friends were making jokes about her body. She blamed Catia but her friend understand because she noticed that there was something going on. Only to find out her friend was pregnant. She dropped out of school because she couldn’t handle the way they used to laugh at her. Her mother saw everything coming. Filomena decided to commit suicide because she disappointed her mother and she has become a laughing stock at school since her body has changed. She couldn’t handle the pain she was feeling, she blamed herself for everything because she knew Asher did not love her and he had a girlfriend but she followed her heart. Her mother cried after finding out that she lost her daughter and she blamed herself that maybe she didn’t do enough for her.

Her mother went to see Filomena’s Cass teacher Ms Mabaso. The teacher called Catia since she was her friend. Catia explained everything and told them where Filomena was that night she didn’t sleep at home. Then Catia went to tell Asher about Filomena. Asher was in tears. Tears were falling unknowingly and his friends were surprised because they thought that he didn’t love her and that’s where Asher realised that he love her. He didn’t sleep that night, thinking about her and the way she loved him but he didn’t care. Asher knew that she was pregnant but he didn’t care about her or the baby. 

Asher didn’t go to school for the whole week. On Friday his friends went to his place. “Hey, are you aware that we are writing next week?” they asked. “I killed someone, not just someone, but someone who loved me and she was the mother of my child, my own blood,” he said. 

Asher cried and his friends didn’t know what to say. His friends believe that they were the reason why she killed herself. After Filomena’s funeral, her mother went to Asher’s home. She found Asher alone and she couldn’t control her anger. She choked him to death. Later on, Filomena’s mother went to jail.