Love at first sight ,and a beginning of a beautiful nightmare .Did I ever think we would be at each other’s throats, fighting like cat and mouse or allowing the smallest things to tear us apart ?not ever !because our connection was deeper than just the physical,we connected on a soul level .

My handsome brown skinned guy ,perfectly wrapped and delivered for me .November the 28th ,I remember this day like it was just yesterday -when I met a man with the most beautiful eyes and lips at my cousin’s wedding ,dressed to the nines!.I was on cloud 9 and he effortlessly gave me butterflies in my stomach just by staring at me .I knew right there at that particular moment that that’s my future husband ,but I was waiting for him to make a move and boy did he

He approached me with so much confidence asking for my numbers and I gladly gave them away without a shadow of a doubt because I was also Interested in him,that’s where our bitter sweet journey began.A guy I met at my cousin’s wedding was then my boyfriend and potentially my future husband .

I had never met a guy like him, someone who was not afraid to show me off,he put up our pictures on social media platforms and everybody knew I was his queen .The communication was right ,and the treatment was on another level ,he treated me like a princess and I lacked for nothing .He couldn’t handle me being away from him for too long and so I visited every weekend ,I enjoyed how he prioritised our union and how he valued my presence in his life .We had each other’s backs… like Bonnie and Clyde ,our love was stronger than Romeo and Juliet’s.

Until one Easter morning I decided to go to his place unannounced after he told me he wasn’t home when we were supposed to meet that day ,I remember how furious I was , unaware that I was carrying our first child -it was unfortunate that my pregnancy couldn’t hold,and we only found out about it when he took me to the doctor after I had been complaining about abdominal pains and unusual menstrual flow ..”The pregnancy test says you are pregnant but it’s unfortunate that you’ve lost the baby , should I call your partner in “he was at the waiting area .

Nothing can describe the pain I felt and the void I still feel even today,it left me heartbroken,I was torn apart ,ended up losing it mentally,I was depressed.he started distancing himself and stopped checking up on me , maybe he was dealing with it too , maybe he needed his space but I resented him for him for not being there for me .

That’s when our relationship spiralled out of control ,we started fighting a lot ,blaming each other , the loss of our first child took away the love we had for each other ,we didn’t grieve our baby girl or boy properly because our love turned into a battlefield.

Am at fault for the loss of our baby ?

Perhaps I should’ve protected him/her but I didn’t know I was pregnant

Is it my fault our relationship took strain ?maybe I should’ve considered his feelings because it was his baby too but it still doesn’t justify the fact that he chose to neglect me instead of offering me support.

All is fair at love and war perhaps our story can be rewritten but I leave it all in the hands of fate .

T.C.M❤️💕