My Time Will Be Wasted and My Mind Will Be Twisted .

I take time reminiscing about all the times we had as our past . Good times were meant to build and collect us ,it is so sad how we lost ourselves trying to impress the others ..maybe they needed us more than we ever need “us”. I am not surprised it’s just that we failed the battle by starting a war.

I thought time will go on and heal the past.

I thought will grow old and realized our biggest mistakes made us separate but still look fine and better off without me ..maybe I was never a man enough, who knows maybe I was trying so much that you ended up losing interest in seeing me putting more efforts on us

 …I thought you lovedus they way I wanted to keep us forever, not just for that moment… I even worry about diamond rings fitting you  because I thought you’d be a better bride …so many tears I’d cry I don’t wanna cry no more.I’m finna letting go but I can’t, I’m finna get over but I’m too down …I’m upset I can’t pretend ….

Sometimes I think about quitting loving you, about forgetting thinking about you, but girl you’re stuck on my mind I can’t lie …I think I’m finna cap a little I am strong but not enough to ride alone or with someone else not you …

I chose you I need you …trying seems like a waste of time …maybe I should back off …

Still not trying is the waste of time. What if you need me by now and you can’t show it because you are afraid of the person you thought I’ve turned to be …

all feels NUMB I think I must die to be at ease and forever relieve myself from everything else .