I Now believe that the tongue has the power to tear others down and I also know that an apology without a changed behaviour is Manipulation.

It’s okay for me to express my grievance as long as I don’t sound mean and raise my voice while expressing myself. I chose to put you first instead of myself and you’ve never appreciated me enough, I’ve always doubted and disrespected myself for tolerating less than I deserve because I’ve been scared of how you will react, I lost myself because of loving you too much. I wish I addressed this from the onset because if I did it would probably not came out harshly. I honestly helped you out of the good of my heart and it still pains me that you made me feel guilty instead of appreciating my efforts I even raised this issue hoping that you would apologize Because you know that mistakes happen and I wasn’t trained to do that kind of job, I felt like you were manipulative and exploitative.
You know very well that I’m not fit emotionally yet you still managed to add more pain by treating me unfairly and when I try to speak up for myself and notice you your mistakes, you don’t want to acknowledge that you were wrong. Yes motherhood is sensitive but it’s important to give me a platform to express and stand up for myself without fearing anything.I believe in speaking up boldly for myself but I’m unable to do so because you always deem me disrespectful and you don’t want acknowledge your mistakes.you are a great parent regardless and I admire you.