I didn’t know what the feeling was until you left.

Each and every day is spent thinking about you. Never in my lifetime have I felt this way. It’s so strange and new to me. The feeling of crushing or even liking someone it’s a lot to take in.

We first met in grade 4 we both fought like mad dogs, all bark no bite. Grade6 feeling was never settled for I had my mind in one place. A boy can never be more than just a friend, so I thought. Little did I know how wrong I was.

You would make moves and I wouldn’t want you to get all egotistic on me so I would try to break it. Then I confession letter came, from a girl whom we didn’t expect. You looked shocked, you looked surprised. You look between me and my chairman. My face was glowing. But it’s not what you think. You dated her and so forth.

I don’t know what happened to the rest but I know how it ends. Exams arrived and I was paired with you. Believe it or not, I was glad. You however was over the moon I do admit I enjoyed sitting with you. I heard you talking about your girl and how you were gonna dump her. You caught me by surprise and suddenly I got involved. Your ways were heartless and I kept gasping. Then you asked who was your next target. When I saw you turn to me. I swear my heart jumped. And when our hands touched it was surprisingly warm. Unlike anything I ever felt.

I hate this feeling. Thinking about you every day. How your lips would feel on mine. Would there be passion or hunger? The way you would hold me close when I feel sad. And make the day even brighter when I’m happy. All I can do now is a dream. Which isn’t better than reality. Dreaming to only wake up knowing none if it was real. If only I could go back, and admit to it all. Would everything change?

Would the feeling I have for your change? Boys do you know what you’re putting us girls through?