“Will it all just be a dream?” This is the question I ask myself everyday I wonder about the direction of my life and destiny. When I was a kid I had big dreams that I wanted to make come true, I told myself that if I focused on my school work,get good grades, get a nice job and focus on doing good deeds I would achieve all of my goals and live the life I wish to live with my family, how naive I was because life does not work that way it’s not so easy, just because I treated everyone fairly and wished the best for everyone that did not mean that I would get the same back. I thought that if I did good then good things would follow me but no I got the opposite and the people who are rude,bad they seem to be getting everything nice that the world has to offer and that is when I realized that life is not fair. It is said that nice guys finish last and maybe this is the truth Im considered a nice guy and what I can say is that being nice has not gotten me anywhere. I’m not perfect but I don’t think any of my transgressions mean that I should suffer like this. Everyday I have hope that the sun will rise and shine on my life only for the sun to set with dreams getting crushed everyday as nothing changes and I go to sleep defeated. Last week a very close friend of mine whom we shared everything together and understood each other better than anyone could passed away because of an illness he was just starting to get his life together after being unemployed for a year after graduation and then God took him, he passed away with all the dreams and goals we had set together and he left me with questions like what if Im destined for the same as I was at the cemetery for his burial I saw all the graves filled with people who still had dreams and wished to live longer that is when I asked myself if I will also just die without achieving my dreams will my soul rest in peace if that were to happen as I write this I still have not lost hope I still believe that I will achieve my dreams and I will not change myself and do bad, but through it all there is still this powerful voice which says “what if it all just dreams which will never be achieved?”.

I read somewhere that GOD does not bring anyone in this world with the purpose of making them suffer but then what is it that I’m getting wrong because I pray almost everyday for a better day but still nothing. I think that it will be very sad if my tale ends without me having reached my utmost important dreams all I need is one breakthrough a door to open for me and I will walk through without hesitation but what do you do when everything you do does not seem to work out and it seems like the world is against you?