I got different emotions my emotions are not in order in my community my name has been dragged in the Mud. It’s so funny how everyone believes that I’m addicted to Drugs and I’ll never make it in life I’m being haunted by my flash backs of my failures in life.

my failures keeps haunting me and torturing me in the middle of the night, I find it very difficult to sleep I’m always wondering what’s the couple of negative words against me compared to the struggle i have suffered.

have you ever been suicidal and wish to take your own life with a knife. have you ever wondered what happened to the light, when will you explore the goodness of the Light in your life. this days all i do is wonder, I wonder will i ever find my purpose in life because all i see its darkness in front of my eyes, no one really understands the pain of fighting your battles alone when you have no one by your side.

when you have no shoulder to cry on, when you have no one to open your chest to, because the world outside is cruel and judgmental, people are only good at pointing fingers, I wonder, I wonder what’s their couple of words compared to the struggle I’ve endured know I’m only left with one choice actually I’m left with no choice than to trust and have faith in my self, the Bible says faith is the evidence of things we can’t see but believe in, I guess I’ll do whatever it takes to lift myself up not being moved by the words spoken a against my life.

If you are feeling depressed or suicidal, please know that there is help out there and you can get better. Reach out to SADAG counselling 0800 567 567 (toll-free counselling between 8am and 8pm) or their   Suicide Crisis Line: 0800 567 567. You are not alone.