My night just got spoiled! I really don’t know what’s wrong with him. Is it because he doesn’t love me anymore? Am I boring to him now? I just don’t understand why things have to be like this between us. Why can’t we just have a decent conversation without fighting?

Yes, another fight again today! One minute we were talking just fine and the next we were screaming at each other and now he’s not coming back on Friday anymore. He says he doesn’t see the reason why he should come back whilst things are like this between us. How he expects things to get back to normal with him running away from them still beats me. That’s what I wanted to say to him, but I decided that it’d be better if I shut up and drop my phone. I mean, what’s the use? It’s not like he listens to me anyways!

But now I can’t study anymore. I feel bad for hanging up on him like that. I sometimes just don’t know what to do with him. Why is he misunderstanding me all the time? Why is he always thinking that I’m looking for a fight? The other day my phone was on silent when he called and I missed his calls when I called him back he was angry. He didn’t even give me a chance to explain myself. We seem to have a lot of reasons to fight nowadays.

How did it get to this though? I mean, how did we drift apart to the point that we can’t even have a simple and decent conversation without ending up screaming at each other for things that could be solved politely? Nowadays all we do is fight and argue over the same things over and over again. And, to be honest, it’s quite boring!

Of course I asked him what’s going on and he insists that nothing’s wrong. I shouldn’t worry and focus on my studies, he said. So, I guess, the best thing to do right now is to force myself to study although my mind is scattered all over the place.

ZZ xxx

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