Just got home and Mom’s at the mall, so I have the house to myself for now and I just don’t know what to do. I’m still feeling a bit low on account of that disaster of a test I wrote on Thursday and it sorta messed up my weekend.
But, I guess, it does not help feeling sad over things that I can’t change. I won’t allow Mr Williams’ stupid test to spoil my weekend though. Mom and I need some time out by ourselves. Just the two of us. And that’s why I’m home without her knowledge. Think she’ll like me spending the rest of the week with her?
For the past three years, we haven’t spent much time together. It’s just one of those things one never thinks about. Colleges and varsity sometimes force us to have long-distance relationships with our parents.
Just think of it. How many students are forced to go to colleges and universities that are hundreds of kilometres away from their parents and loved ones? I just wish I could spend more time with my family. This thing of just spending time with family on holidays is pure BS!
But, I guess, it’s for a good cause, hey. Not just that, it’s also part of growing up. It just shows that our parents cannot always be there to hold our hands; somehow, we also have to learn to stand on our own. That’s the good side of it.
Everything has a bad and a good side, I guess.
That’s how mom wants me to look at things. She didn’t freak out or shout when I told her that I didn’t write two tests.
“Just make sure that you are prepared for your next tests, Zinziswa,”
I was quite disappointed and yet relieved to hear her speaking like that. I was so relieved that I almost told her about my poor first semester marks – which she hasn’t seen yet – but I thought that it’s better if I didn’t tell her.
Some things are better left unsaid. I’m sure she will understand. I did it for us. If I have to keep some things from her to make sure that the weekend go as planned, then keeping things from her is what I’ll do!
It’s for a good cause, right? It’s for peace. It’s for spending time with my mom!
I love you mam’Thembu!
ZZ xxx