Wednesday, 10 June, 17:05

Don’t you sometimes wish the past should just remain where it is – in the past? So many times our pasts make it to our present and it is hardly ever a nice encounter. Really, most of the time when the past visits it opens up wounds that have long healed, or are trying to heal.

The past should be just that – the past and nothing else.

I just got a call from Robbie. He says he is in town and wants to meet up with me. Now, I know some of you are probably wondering who Robbie is? Well, he’s the foolish ex who cheated on me with my childhood friend (Noxy) – an EX who I haven’t spoken to in a while. And if it was up to me I would’ve preferred to keep it that way. No. I’m not bitter about what he did. I’ve long forgiven him.

But what I won’t accept is for him to rock up anytime he wants to and expect me to jump up and down as if he’s Santa Claus. He can’t expect me to drop everything I’m doing and meet up with him. I tried to tell him this but because Robbie is Robbie he wouldn’t listen to me.

“For old times’ sake, hey – just innocent drinks. Don’t tell anyone I’m in Cape Town, right?” he said and tried to laugh. When I asked why the secretiveness, he gave a string of incoherent excuses about how he’d love it if as little people as possible knew about him being in Cape Town. I don’t think it’s a good idea to meet up with him, and I told him so. But in the end I told him that it is fine we can meet. It’s not like I had a choice too. The urgency in his voice compelled me to agree to meet him. Whatever it is that he wants to meet me about must be burning him up inside.

I don’t know if I should tell Sebastian though. I mean, it’s certain he’s going to freak out. He’s not going to like it at all. I don’t like doing things behind his back, but I can’t tell him about this. I just can’t.

I don’t think there’s anything innocent about his drinks though. I wonder what it is he wants from me. I mean, why? After so long, close to three years now, I think. What could it be that he wants from me? Is it innocent drinks for old times’ sake as he claims?

ZZ xxx

Dish it: Are you on speaking terms with your exs?