I always thought that boys were hopeless in remembering special days – and today my belief was proved to be true. To most guys nothing (no matter how important) is ever worth remembering. Except if it’s their payday!

I called Sebastian to tell him that I wanted us to meet later today, but “Oh no we can’t. I have a lot of things on my plate at present. Let’s make it another day,” is all I got from him.

But this is what I heard: “I am coward and I am not afraid to admit it. I don’t want to be caught in the middle of you and my mom. So please, keep your distance because I have no energy to fight.”

Not even a simple “I love you babe.”!

And it was evident in his casual voice tone that he had no idea what today means to me. To us. Our relationship. The day we met. It’s our anniversary for Christ sakes! Why can’t he just make time for that? Oh, I forgot he, like most men out there, forgot. Or it has no significance to him.

Between Sebastian and Simphiwe there’s no difference – they both suck up to their mothers. Or maybe I should exempt Sim from that category after the stunt he pulled the other day. Always when his mom is around Sebastian goes all cold on me.

“You are really stressing yourself over nothing Zee,” Tee said, “Sebastian loves you and you know that, don’t you?”

“But Tee… going out would do me a lot of good! I REALLY NEED to get out – home is suffocating me!”

“Then call Noxy and tell her you want to meet up… she’ll be more than happy to play perfect host!”

“I would rather have the devil sit on my table than have to sit with her and hear her whining and whining!”

Sometimes I feel like people don’t really understand me – even my best friend! I mean I had things planned out for us – a day filled with fun. I just wanted to be with him and forget about everything else! I can’t just substitute him with Noxy.

She can live her glamorously golden good life, and leave me living with people who I can relate to. Her and I are not birds of the same feather, as the old adage would agree.

ZZ xxx

Dish it: If you we me, would you ever forgive Noxy? Is there someone you have never forgiven or one who has never forgiven you? What happened?

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