Four days have passed. He hasn’t called yet. I am not going to chase after his tail. I am not that desperate. Who does he think I am? I really won’t go to the pub; he would think I am forcing myself on him. If he doesn’t want to talk to me it’s fine.

Something is definitely wrong. He must tell me if he no longer loves me just because I’ve been busy. I thought of all people he would understand that education comes first.

I think I will just call Tee and spend the day catching up with her. She is the only one who understands me. She can listen to me ranting on and on about all the worlds woes and she won’t judge me or patronise. That’s how good friends are. They are with you all the time, during the bad moments and the good times. Sims and mom have gone to the P.E for the weekend, so I have the house all to myself…

I need to get out of this house; it’s so lonely. Sebastian laughter would have drowned this loneliness but he wants me to beg! He can forget, that won’t happen anytime soon…

ZZ xxx