Kanti thando wabanjani.
Ukujala okungaka,
Hayi ndaze ndoyisakala.
Uthi, “Our love is toxic for each other”
Kungani?
Omnye uthi, “It’s not love it’s obsession”
WHY?

Kanti thando injongo yakho ithini ngam?
Kuba ndophukile kengenxa yakho
Ndimanxebanxeba kungawe
If I had known that taking your path would
Hurt me like this I wouldn’t have walked it.
I mean others say they love me but
With a motive of destroying me.

I am not human in their eyes, just an object.
It is as if I don’t have a soul
I mean a person who was supposed to be my safe place
Turned out to hurt me in the name of love.
I mean he preached that he loved me like his own daughter,
But turned out to be the one to take off my undies.
He is the one threatening to kill me.

He says he is grooming me to be a good wife
He says I am possessed, I must be sold.
He says it’s a father’s responsibility to groom a child.

How?
Because my father accepted me
Before I even accepted myself.
What did he mean?
Because my father was the one to tell me
That no one was to determine my sexuality but I…
Why did he use the word love?

Kanti thando ungumbulali?
Umtshabalalanisi?
Umguvuli manxeba?
Umhlukumezi?
Waze wandenza thando!
Kanti wabanjani, ndibulawa kungenxa yakho,
Ndubizwa ngezimbo nguwe
Hayi ndijalile,ndoyisakala nguwe thando.

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