I have forgotten what it was like
To look deep in one’s eyes and see
The rivers reaching their ends and falling off the cliff.
I have forgotten what another’s touch feels like,
The vibration of skins rubbing and the warmth produced by the heart.
I have forgotten what it feels like for my breath to be stolen as a result of another.
I have forgotten what it feels like to be caged down and disciplined.
I have forgotten the sound of my own heart.
I have forgotten what it is like to be haunted by your sight.
I have forgotten what it felt like to have it all.
I have forgotten everything but
The smile that was contagious.
The eyes that left me at the edge of the universe
The sun sets, left your beauty in its florescence
I hated my impatience when it came to consulting with you.
I hate my ability to remember details that have no worth now
I hate how every sunrise and sunset stands as a reminder.
I hate the fact that I have forgotten how to love.
I hate the lie I keep on telling myself.
There is no memory that is out of reach