I grew up with no dad

Growing up as a kid was so bad

Especially when I didn’t have a dad

I had a hopes that one day you will come back 

I had to survive on my own

Crying with my heart without even looking down

I didn’t even know your name  

Crying on father’s day was an everyday game

Do you know how difficult it is to be raised by a single mother  

There are somethings I couldn’t tell mom

I had to experience a bullying in your absence 

Looking at my tears

Mom couldn’t even see my fears

I was bleeding inside

But smiling outside 

I used to be so weak 

Also afraid to even speak

You are my dad just by name

Things will never be the same

Where were you when I needed you the most ⁉️

Living without you will have nothing to cost

Because I did it before

I can also do it again

I felt pain again and again

Until I couldn’t feel it anymore

I’m not writing this so you can feel sorry

I’m fine ; please don’t worry

I remember counting years like I’m doing maths

But years couldn’t stop counting 

And I couldn’t stop growing 

Living with pain was for everyday 

And I had nothing to say