Sanele had a special test because he failed the test he was writing and he had to go back to school.

Him: I know that you love him, but just know that I have baby with you and one day I will be strong enough to fight for you. I know that I have girlfriend but I want you to be mine forever.

Me:Sanele you that you love your girlfriend and you choose her over me, please let me go. I am not ready for the truth it will mess up my life and I am not done I still have final exams to write so can you please at least wait after final exams then we’ll see but not now.

Him: for your sake of your studies, I will keep quiet but everyone deserves the truth before it’s too late. I can’t afford my baby being raised by another man.

He ended the call.

It was almost two weeks now, and I have to go back to school and start preparing for my final exams. Nkanyiso went back to work. It was hard to leave my daughters with People that I don’t know.

After 6 weeks, I was about to write my final paper of the exam. I have been waiting for this day to go to take my daughters to my home. The following day I went to see my daughters at KZN and Nkanyiso was also coming back as he got a break from work.

I had go to the Hospital and ask to give me something so that I can start to breastfeed my daughters. It was a nice feeling ever, I enjoyed seeing them sleeping they have beautiful brown eyes. I guess they took that from me. They were more like me. Nkanyiso’s granny mother was also coming to visit from Mozambique. I could smell trouble coming.

Well I wasn’t easy since I have to cook and do house chores while I have twins but my boyfriend was also helping too. It was not easy, I had to be umakoti, be a mother and be a wife to my boyfriend.

Him: I want us to go out.

Me: we can do a picnic here in our room, I can’t leave my daughters alone they need me.

Him: I missed us yazi sthandwa Sam

Me: nam babe

As I was getting close to him, we kissed. I felt that warm again as he was touching my body. I was already wet, I need umgeba inside now.

Me: put it inside, I said holding umageba wam

Him: don’t make noise, as he was kissing me.

Me: I want it inside baby, as I was taking off his clothes.

At least this time I am preventing so I am safe and he doesn’t know because I want him to pull out everytime. I enjoyed umageba wam then we went to bath and found my babies awake and not even crying. It was so cute. I was busy playing with my babies while Nkanyiso was busy playing games with my phone. My phone rang.

Him: baby your phone!

Me: oh! I went to answer my phone,

Sanele: Hey mommy, When can I see my baby?

Me: I will let you know.

Sanele: My parents want to do inhlaulo and they want to see the baby first and you also have to go home.

Nkanyiso took the phone as he heard him saying that and put it on loud speaker.

Nkanyiso: which baby are you talking about?

Sanele: ask her.

Me:baby I can explain, this is my ex and he is jealous about us. He never accepted that we are a fam…

Sanele: Okay, let me tell you neh ndoda, the other girl is mine not yours. She can’t deny, I can sent you the results of a DNA. We have to check which one is mine.

Nkanyiso slapped me and when I was trying to talk, he slapped me again. He went to my babies and look at them then he looked at me and went out. The time he came back, it was late and I didn’t sleep I was waiting for him. He chased me out and his family was just watching, I guess he already told them.

I went to Sanele’s home. He didn’t mind to allow me to sleep but I stayed to his room outside the main house. I had to breastfeed my babies, there’s no way I can leave them. The following day I woke up in the morning and went to Nkanyiso’s house and I found him drinking alcohol.

Me: I am here to pack my bags

He didn’t even look at me. I packed everything for me and my daughters and sat down. I explained everything.

Him: why didn’t come to me and ask me, so you were controlled by words is that what you are saying. Just leave!

Me: I don’t have money to find a place to stay and my daughters need food and clothes, I still have to finish my degree. Your baby need you, she is innocent from this. My dad expect me to come home with your uncle or someone from your family to pay damages. He won’t accept me, please.

Him: That’s not my problem, you should have thought about that when you were opening legs for you baby daddy.

Me: But I did open my legs for you and many times, you also have to pay damages.

He slapped me so hard and I cried and started beating me and left me. I took my bags and went to Sanele’s home. I went to check on Nompilo and Nkosikayise and they were awake while Sanele was sleeping. I bath them, then breastfeed them. I also went to bath and they were crying. Sanele was only holding Nompilo. It was hurting me and I had R3000 in my account. I brought a ticket to go home. I took Nkosikayise and I smiled forgetting that my body is in pain.

After two days I went home. I had to do every house chores but it was better. My girls were growing and they gave me a reason to be strong. My dad end up accepting, just that we were many for him to support us financially but he was trying.

On the 24th of December, I got a call.

Nkanyiso:Hey, can I see my baby today, I will send you location

Me: Nkanyiso right?

Him: dress her nice clothes and he hang out the phone.

Me: I don’t want to my girls to grow up without knowing their father so I will do it even he is rude but I won’t let him to overpower me.

After 3 hours, he sent me the location and I went there.

Him:Hey, you have lost weight.

Me: I gave him Nkosikayise.

He open the door of his car for me. We went to the mall and he brought clothes for both of them. After shopping, I had to breastfeed my girls I first started with Nompilo then after I layed her down on the seat of his car I took Nkosikayise. He took Nompilo and hold her. I asked him to take me home. He did as I said.