Regret is all I think of. If I hadn’t went to the party and slept with Tiisetso we would be talking about different stories now. I am only 2 months and 1 week pregnant but I feel like I am 8 months pregnant. I feel like every one notices that I am pregnant.
How am I going to raise this child?My mom is working but the salary is not much. How am I going to finish school?I am only in grade 10.I can’t drop out of school,and besides who is going to hire a high school drop out?
What worries me is that is Tiisetso going to accept his child. He will think that I am lying,I am just after his parent’s money and I don’t think Tiisetso is ready to be a father.
“Hey babe. You look out of here “Xolwa says.
“Uhmm. Xo I am just thinking about something “I say.
“Go home and change. At 15:30 come meet me at the park. “Xolwa says.
“Okay.See you soon”I say and Xolwa leaves. I go back to my kingdom of thinking.
How am I going to explain to Xolwa that I am pregnant?He will surely dump me and move on for good.
I hear some girls laughing and I turn my head to them. It’s Mihlali and her crew since the incident we haven’t talked. She’s got new friends and she hasn’t apologized to me.
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I arrive at the park 15 minutes late wearing blue denim shorts and a boobtube crop top alongside with my white sneakers.
I look around and I catch sitting alone, he’s looking great and he’s prepared a picnic. What a gentleman he is. It looks more like a date.
“My love. I thought you weren’t coming “Xolwa says smiling.
I sit down and kiss Xolwa on his forehead.
“I am sorry for being late.”I say.
We chat,sing,take pictures and then Xolwa insists we have a serious talk.
“Reneilwe I don’t know how to say this but I am leaving the country “Xolwa says. And that’s what crushes my world.
“Wha..What. Why?”I ask with a cracking voice.
“My dad got a job at the USA and now we have to leave.”
“When are you leaving”
“Tommorow night at 20:30”