Of course you can’t just say that you are inlove with me. What are words without actions. I’m going to need you to love me a little more everytime. I’m going to need you to assure me always that you want me. I’m insecure and I overthink . I know that it’s not what you signed up for. I don’t want to bother you though. Just once, I just want someone who’s going to love my soul. It doesn’t have to hurt this time. I just want someone soft and gentle. I know, it’s inconvenient for you. I just want to understand love in details. To know how if feels when you are loved and love back genuinely.

When I can feel your presence. Feel your touch through my skin. Enjoy our silence speaking to us at times. Talk for hours and laugh endlessly. Hold my hands and hug me so tightly and tell me how you feel about me. See through my smile and laughter. It feels so good to be known I swear. Someone who will know me better than I do. Understand me better and choose me everyday. Kiss me all over my face until I smile. Someone who will love me in our bad and good days. Does that someone even exist? It’s silly, right? I know it is.

I was daydreaming and creating fake scenarios as usual. I was happy in my own little world unbothered about anything. A main character in my cute little story where it is just me and my friend Kavya . Did I tell you that I hate early mornings with passion? My alarm snooze three times before I can wake up finally. I dragged my feet to the bathroom and I was late again. I was going to buy cupcakes and coffee on my way to work. My boss hate late comers. He values punctuality and hard work. He loathe dishonesty a lot.

He’s the founder of Langa Publishers and a CEO too. I’m talking about a man who’s always in a foul mood ordering others. He hates mistakes and clumsy individuals. He’s always professional . I’ve noticed that he never smiled or praised anyone before instead hard working employees were always rewards by bonuses. He doesn’t mind firing people from the spot for not meeting deadlines or for being reductant. Me being his personal assistant of course means that I have to deal with his short temper all day. Sometimes I would work overtime to make sure the work is done otherwise I would be in it for a long lecture or even get fired. Mr Brown didn’t spare anyone.

” You’re late again!” He shouted. I stared at him for a moment. Not sure what to say. He hate excuses. I’m pretty sure that he hate everything. Well he was being the typical boss. Me apologising to him was just going to add more fuel to the fire so I took the safest choice- silence.

” Are you going to stand here. I want my work done in an hour. I have back to back meetings today so please” I just rolled eyes and went to my office. Of course , he didn’t see me otherwise I I would had received a scolding. Everyone was busy with their work and I stopped at Kavya’s desk for a little gossip. She was telling me about her untidy husband and how much she annoyed.

Kavya and her husband Akona met at college. Akona was a charmer back then and a skank as well. A neat and hyper active gent. Everyone loved her that also includes my best friend Kavya . She had a really big crush on him and would do absolutely everything to meet him or see him. To me he was just one annoying person who was just a sucker for attention . So Kavya and him started dating and my girl have to deal with those collage girls threatening to beat him and telling him to stay away from their men. He was quite much of a catch though but for some reason girls were just crazy about him.

It was when Kavya got her first heart break . Akona wasn’t up for a long term and commitment. He just wanted to play and have some fun. I’ve advised her to leave him and find a better man for herself. I’d tell her that there are a lot of them out there gunning to be with her. I guess, no one listens to good advice. Finally, Akona proposed and they tied a knot. I was happy for her and wished them a happy marriage life. Akona seemed to had understood after Kavya had given him an ultimatum.

Over the years she had always been complaining about him. That she cleans after him and do everything for him. Akon had been sent to jail once for beating a man who was just talking to his wife. They were too cosy according to him . He had a bad shot temper and at times he would beaut his wife after coming back to work drunk. He gambled all their savings and salary and they landed in a big trouble. I’ve tried to advise Kavya to call it quit and move on but my words went in vain.