Melokuhle



It has been 15 minutes of me having a tug and war with my brain, of whether I must get out of this car or not.

I can’t even believe that I am even here at my parents house. The time that I had spent alone cooped up in my apartment was the time I realised that I am not okay and how my father had also destroyed me.

There were times I had convinced myself that I had forgiven my father for hurting me, for having a part into destroying my life.

But each night that I laid awake facing the ceiling of my bedroom was the time I realised that I despise my father for what he did to me.

For not caring about my feelings and having to call out Melusi’s ex just to break us up.

I took a deep breath and stepped out of the car. I wiped my sweaty hands on my dress as I opened the gate with the remote.

I followed the sound of laughter coming from the garden, my mother is the first person who saw me. She came rushing over to give me a tight hug.

I lifted up my head and looked at my father standing a few feet away, I nodded and he returned the nod. My mother excused herself as the tension started to rise.

“Baba.” I said sitting down, my knees starting to buckle up because of my nerves.

“Ndodakazi.” My father replied sitting down opposite me. I licked my dry lips stalling a little bit.

“Melusi and I fixing things.” I blurted out dropping the bombshell, the weight on my shoulders lifted. I looked at my father waiting for the news to sink in and hit him like a tide of wave and in a few seconds it did but he didn’t jump up from his chair in anger or cursed out he just sat there and looked at me but the calm composure was betrayed by the brewing anger in his eyes.

I didn’t wait for him to talk as I carried on “I love him, I love him with all of my heart baba. If you are not going to accept our relationship then I will have no choice but to cut you out of my life and your grandbaby’s life.

I watched as his eyes lit up, they landed on my stomach. “You are pregnant.” he almost shouted.

I nodded “I can’t let my child grow on such negativity if you can’t allow my relationship with Melusi I will have no choice but to,”

“I’ll try to accept Melusi,” He said cutting me before I could even finish my sentence and stood up”For the sake of the baby.” he hurriedly went inside to find my mother and tell her the news in just a matter of moments I heard my mother’s excited scream as she rejo iced into being a grandmother.