Melokuhle



My eyes adjust to the huge room as soon as they open, I groggily sit up and blush when I see that I am naked. I can’t remember the last time I had such a good sleep. I gasp when I look at the bedside table watch I have been asleep for 3 hours.

I put on my clothes and headed downstairs, walking softly so as to not make noise. I walked over to the garden and sat next to Melusi in silence as we watched the sunset.

“I ordered some chinese food.” He said breaking the silence. I looked at him and nodded, there is so much I want to say to him, like how I had missed him the last months or how I spent most of my nights crying and spending my days telling myself that he is nothing when I know that insomnia will hit me when I need sleep the most and how at 3 a.m I would wonder if he is also awake and thinking about me too.

There is so much I want to say but I just don’t know how to talk to him, it is like I am a high school girl with their crush. He looks refreshed like having me by his side has made him to be himself again.

“I never want to lose you again Melokuhle.” He said softly, his leg started bouncing, a sign of how nervous he is. I almost let out a smile.

Melusi is not the type to get nervous, seeing him get nervous is such a refreshing sight.

“It’s simple, don’t do anything that will make you lose me.” I said no longer looking at him, the thought of Zandile still makes my blood to boil every single time I think about her and what she did to me.

And I still can’t believe that Melusi cheated on me just days after our wedding, the thought had haunted me for so long asking myself, why?

As tears came out every night I would look at myself on the mirror and wonder what was wrong about me that he had to go and eek out Zandile.

I asked myself for the longest time until I stopped even looking at myself on the mirror. It is funny how this man had destroyed me so much that I thought I was beyond even repair but here I am, still in this house and I have not even attempted to leave.

What is wrong with me?

“I promise, I will never hurt you again.” He said forming a tight fist.

I am still cautious with my heart and I know I might never heal but I am willing to give him the benefit of the doubt.