Melusi



I tried my best to maintain a smile while my friend Thulani chatted with the new guy who had just joined us and whose name had slipped my mind. My gaze lingered on my empty ring finger, a stark reminder of the divorce papers I had agonised over for three long days. I wanted to fight for Melokuhle, but the pain I had caused her weighed heavily on my conscience, making it difficult to push for reconciliation.

I had made the painful decision to let her go, believing it was for the best so she that can heal from the hurt that I had caused her. The ache in my heart is undeniable, and I miss her deeply, but sometimes the most loving thing we can do for someone is to set them free.

I had made sure Zandile is no longer in the picture, knowing that her obsession with me had led her to do terrible things. I wanted to lash out at her for kidnapping Melokuhle, I wanted to make her pay for the pain she had caused, but I know deep down that it won’t solve anything.

Pushing my chair back, I excused myself from the conversation and left the stuffy bar. The salty air of the beach greeted me, and I took a deep breath, trying to find solace in the calming sound of the waves.

The pain in my heart is raw, feeling as though it had been torn apart. I held myself accountable for destroying my own marriage, all because of my past with Zandile. I know that the pain will come and go, and right now, I allowed it to hurt until it can hurt no more.

In the days to come, I will learn to cope with the heartache, giving myself time to heal and grow from my mistakes. The road ahead would be challenging, but I am determined to become a better person and, perhaps one day, find a love that is built on a foundation of honesty and trust.

Maybe even one day me and Melokuhle will try again, maybe in that time we will get it right there will be no pain, no tears and no regrets and we will make it work but until then I have to learn to let her go.