With the little confidence I had ain’t gonna lie that broke me it changed how I see myself as an individual even how I saw myself in the mirror changed I’d take hours and hours trying to somehow change myself but my big head was unchangeable and the fact that I was fat made everything worse I started believing that I looked like a hippo I’d avoid being in public spaces because of how I looked according to people .

I saw Lerato and her other two friend Kiara and Kutlwano as I was about to go to the toilet and they were standing in front of the toilet when I entered the girl’s toilet as school they laughed and started singing ” Mvubu the hippo Is here my children don’t cry she won’t bite ” , my heart was broken I looked horrible why did I cut my hair shorter in the first place .

I started loosing focus at school i’d hide I hated break time because that was the time were I was alone with the bullies and everyone was laughing at me there were no teachers around and kids would become wilder and laugh at me straight on my face I wasn’t free I told myself that the next day I will never ever go to school again .

School became a place where I felt scared , humiliated and embarrassed everyday I stopped caring about education ! The thruth was I was wounded I was bleeding inside I couldn’t learn anymore I just couldn’t .The next day my aunt was going to work and she waked me up to go to school and I pretended as if I was sick ” Botlhale wake up if you don’t wake up now you’ll be late for your morning class” she said, no auntie I’m not feeling well so I can’t go to school , “But you are doing Grade 12 you can’t afford to miss a day over some little sickness haibo vuka wena ”

Little did she know that the sickness I had was incurable if I knew how to cure the sickness of having a big head I’d cure it now . So I pretended as if I was going to school I came back after an hour I knew that my aunt had already gone to work by that time while staying at home that day I felt alot of fresh air , peace & joy I felt free to go to the toilet at anytime I wanted I felt free to move around and the nicest part was I had no friends who pretended to love me my soul was at peace atleast.