Ntobeko



I barely slept a wink last night, I woke up with my body sore from all the tossing and turning. When I walked into the kitchen I found my mother on the stove looking healthy, she smile when she sawme approaching and poured the both of us some soft porridge.

It had been a while since I saw my mother this happy, when I left she looked like she had given up hope about a bad leg thinking that she will never heal but now standing here all smiles made me happy that Siza had done good for my mother even if he didn’t have to.

“I even found a job.” My mother said over breakfast with a big smile on her face.

“Where?”

She shrugged like it was not a big deal “I am a tea lady at some company, and it pays really well, I know it’s not fancy,”

I shook my head and held her hand “I’m proud of you Mom.” I squeezed her hand gently and we talked briefly about how I was doing, I lied to some of the parts and soon she left for work.

To keep myself busy I opted to clean the house as I tried to push the thoughts away from my mind not wanting to think about Siza or how he was looking at me last night and how he held himself not chase after me when I left.

It was hard trying to keep my thoughts at bay but with music blasting loud from the TV managed to drive Siza’s face away from my thoughts.

I mopped the floor while I danced to the popular song Water. Everything went silent when I felt the door being kicked open. I turned around frozen with fear watching some men waltzing into my mother’s house. They all looked ruthless as they looked at me.

I should do something, yes I should scream, run or use the mop as a weapon but instead, I stood frozen with fear standing there defenceless confused as to what was happening.

My whole body went numb, refusing to function. The man standing at the centre looked at me. He was big, he seemed to have swallowed the room as he had entered.

I had seen him before, back when I had arrived at that warehouse. He looked angry when Siza refused to take his bid of R2 million. He smiled, he looked like a predator, a wolf waiting to pounce.

A gold tooth showed on his rotting teeth when he looked at me making me feel dirty, he licked his cracked lips. This was the time for me to scream but my voice had left me, I shivered while he roughly pushed me down on the cold wet floor. The loud music was drowned by my pulsing heart that was galloping on my chest.

“Siza was stupid to want to let you go.” He forcefully pulled down my skirt. I tried to scream but it was now too late, one man tied my mouth with some cloth, I could only watch as the huge man gave me a wet grin ripping my underwear. “I want to see what Siza he was seeing in you.”

I tried to wriggle out of his heavyweight but it was useless with him pinning me like this. He pushed himself inside me. Tears were the only thing I managed to let out as I felt him ripping me apart.

Even though Siza was ontop of me, I never felt this… This violated before, I never felt this used like I was nothing but something to be used and thrown away.

“You are nice.” He breathed out heavily, making me sick to my stomach. I closed my eyes not wanting to look at his face as he pounded himself inside me.

He had the decency to pull out and came outside, he chuckled moving away and took a deep breath “I now see why Siza wanted you to himself.”

I pulled my legs to my chest still on the floor, I watched him pull his pants up and nodded to the guys who were looking at me with lust, I was certain that they would all have their turn on me but they left following their boss.

I choked on my tears as I cried feeling the pain from the pit of my stomach, feeling my stomach turn with disgust.