Nombuso

I found Mpilo already waiting outside the club, I let him take me to the mall. I listened to him talk about almost everything, seemed really excited to spend his time with me.

Although I also enjoyed spending time with him, Ayabonga’s words kept ringing on my head and he was right I have been playing him all this while, making him a fool behind his back.

“What’s going on? You have been awfully quiet.”

We stopped walking and he looked at me “Have I done something? Or said something that you didn’t like?”

I shook my head “No, it’s not you Mpilo.” I looked down at the stuffed animal he bought for me “I realised that I am tired Mpilo, I am tired of the sneaking around. I don’t even know what we are doing here.” I said ignoring all the people who were passing by “Don’t get me wrong,I loved all the things we did recently but I can’t do this anymore, I feel like I have been choosing you for so long that I even forgot to love myself in the process because I have heen putting you first and I deserve to put me first.”

I looked at the stuffed animal although it was beautiful I handed it back to him “And I realised yet again that I have been foolish all this time so allow me to love me and put me first.” I said with a smile and walked away from him.

This time I didn’t turn around to look if he was looking at me or if the crowd of people have blocked his view.

I quickly called the curb, I was anxious anxious to see Ayabonga and hold him in my arms, when the car parked outside the apartment I quickly ran out and went to the apartment and found him on the stove cooking, he looked surprised seeing me there “What’s wrong?”

“Tell me again Aya, tell me again that you love me.”

He kept quiet for a second as if wondering where this all came from but he quickly recovered and said “I love you Nombuso.” He said standing so close to me that I felt his hot breath.

“I love you too.” When our lips locked I knew that I had made the right decision, in his arms right now I felt secured and safe. I held him a little bit closer to me and I just knew right there and then that I wanted no one else but him.

I choose him