Mpilo
It was now 12:40 and I had set everything up, I wondered if she even read my text yesterday or she just ignored it. Just as I was to give up I saw here in a green dress, hugging her body so perfectly. I watched her as she walked over to me at the inside I was screaming with absolute joy, it was so hard to believe that she was here.
“Hi.” I said when she was close enough. “Quit the pleasantries and tell me why I am here when I could be home relaxing.” I nodded as we sat down “I am sorry for pushing you away.” I said “I am sorry for hurting you.”
“Don’t you think it’s a little bit tad too late now?”
“It is but I want you to here me out.”
“And what is that going to change?” I shrugged “Probably nothing, but can I still say my peace?”
“Okay.”
“I know I have been an asshole before, but I didn’t want you to see me like that in an orange uniform. I didn’t want you to have that picture of me in there, I was not myself in there and I didn’t want you to see another version of me, a version that I too never liked.”
she looked at me like I was insane “Why? I didn’t care about all that, I wanted to be there for you, be your pillar of strength but you pushed me away.”
“And I’m sorry I did, but you don’t understand while I was in there I could not show any emotions, I could not show who I cared about because they would have hurt you because of some stupid rival gang and when you came that other day I had to pretend that I didn’t want you there because even some of the guards work for the gangs and I could not put you in harms away.”
She kept quiet for a while as if she was pondering all that I had said “Oh.” She said as she fiddled with her hands, it was that one thing she constantly did when she was thinking “I didn’t know, even so Mpilo, I have found myself a boyfriend and he is treating me good, he protects me, he makes me laugh, try new things and he is a good guy.”
“Do you love him?” I asked, asking such a question terrified me but I had to know.
“Does it matter?”
I shrugged “I just wanna know.” she sighed “I think I do.” she said, she was not sure and that left me with a small chance to prove myself to her.