How would you feel?

My name is Lesedi Mokwena I live with my sister. I lost my mom at the age of 3; well I guess I don’t know her physically or personally. I wonder how it feels to have someone to talk to or just to say the word “mom” to someone. I was young; I didn’t understand anything and no-one explained to me.

I saw thousands of people that day and some were crying. I was asking myself many questions. I was only 3 years old. I didn’t cry or anything cause I was confused.

After some few days I noticed that the person who used to feed me is not around. Who will I ask? How would you feel? If I ask obviously they’ll say I’m overreacting or I’m being disrespectful. It hurts to be a black child; you just have to accept the situation no matter what.

I was forced to call my aunt ‘mama’ ; trust me it doesn’t feel good and I did not have a choice at all .

After 5 years I decided to ask my grandma, I knew what was happening but I had to confirm. My grandmother didn’t take me seriously, you know why? Cause I was still a child. I guess a black child shouldn’t be asking such questions. I don’t discuss my issues with anyone so I have a short temper and I have anger issues.

How would you feel?