Cradock was very dry in the summer . In winter , the water froze and you could see icicles hanging from the water tap . This fascinated you . It was also a time when you discovered reading . If you’re going to be rich, it’s best to help your self by reading . You read a variety of books including Roald Dahl . You were now nearly 12 and growing quite well .

Your step mother was a very large woman who liked to have you massage her legs but only when your father wasn’t home. Soon you were massaging her buttocks . You did have a feeling this was wrong but like most children, you automatically trusted adults . One day you came back from school and she was waiting for you in the kitchen . She quickly locked the door and instructed you to get on your knees and under her dress . Submerged in darkness , you wondered what was happening. You felt suffocated by wetness . Her giant thighs nearly breaking your neck.

This was around the time that as a boy you were supposed to get your first wet dreams , but what came where nightmares of a gigantic vulva suffocating you . In these dreams , a huge black vulva chased you all over , opening up to swallow you. You decided to tell your father . Just as you were starting to explain , your step-mother came forward with dagga and lied that she had found it in your pants . Next she planted cigarettes and eventually, something white you had never seen . Believing you were doing drugs , your Christian father kicked you out . At the age of 13, you lived in the streets of Cradock , doing petty theft just to eat and that’s how the Big Boys found you .