Thandiwe



During the car ride I could not help but feel like the happiest girl alive. I never thought that I’ll receive this kind of love before and now that I have him, it feels so right.

I looked down at our hands together resting of his thigh all if this was new to me but in such a short space he managed to make me feel loved.

I looked up only to find him already looking at me.

We said our goodbyes the minute we got out of the car only to find all the rooms and cottages with their lights off making it easier to walk inside Siseko’s house without being spotted by anyone.

As soon we walked inside Siseko kissed as if I was the air he was breathing and he cannot survive without me.

He lifted me up so easily as if I weighed nothing, without breaking our kiss he led me into what I assumed was his bedroom.

He gently placed me on the bed and slowly took out my clothes as if he was admiring my body making me thank my lucky stars for wearing matching underwear.

He looked at me “We can stop if you want to, If you not ready we can stop and watch a movie or something.”

I got up from the bed heading towards him and pulling him “Quit talking.” I said as I kissed him urging him and just like that he he was butt naked and was soon deep inside me.

My toes curled up and for a brief second my mind came back to a realisation that I don’t remember seeing him wearing any protection, before I can process the thought it was already gone the minute that feeling built up ready for me to realise and just like that all of my thoughts went out the window.

We lay facing up at the ceiling with Siseko busy on his phone. After what felt like eternity he placed his phone down and wrapped his hands around me “That was amazing.”

I nodded not saying a word. “What?” He asked sitting up right “Did I hurt you? Are you sore?”

I shook my head no and looked at him “It’s just that, I don’t remember seeing you wear any protection.”

He looked at me as if I had offended him “What are you trying to say? That you think I’m sick? Don’t you trust me.”

Confused I shook my head “No it’s not like that I’m sorry. I do trust you.”

“Then stop insinuating things.” He said taking his phone again from the bedside table.

I felt vulnerable but he was right I was supposed to trust him as my boyfriend and not question him, but why did I feel so lonely.

I wanted to burst into tears it was like my heart had been stabbed by his piercing words.

“I’m sorry.” I said once more. He looked at and smiled “Now that’s my baby girl.” He said pulling me closer towards him and kissed me “I love you.”

“I love you too.”