Saturday

I wish he didn’t ask me to be his girlfriend, I have to much to worry about and spending time with him on the side. I need advice, I’m not sure if he actually likes me but I like him, okay. And I dreamt of him, I guess it’s a yes. Jake came to my bedroom window and knocked, he ask about my answer and I opened the window and said:

“ I’ll give you your answer later, ok”

” Please Nomhle. Ever since I’ve laid my eyes on you, ever since I’ve heard you voice. Ever since you shouted at me at the shop, the first time I met you, you’ve been on my mind, I basically worship the ground you walk on! I believe that you are my soul mate, you are the first girl I’ve ever felt about this way. Nomhle I LOVE YOU with all my heart.”

And with that I froze and I sunk into a deep dark hole. After a few minutes I heard Jake waking me up telling me he didn’t mean for me to faint. I woke up and saw the position I was sleeping in and asked Jake what he saw, he said

“Yes.”

” Yes, what?”

” The answer is yes.”

I didn’t think I had the gut to say it, but I did. I was in love with him and too scared to say. He pulled me out of my thoughts with a kiss, he kissed me like the world were to end any minute and he held me like it’s the last time he will ever hold me and he looked into my eyes not looking away for a single second until a knock on the door disturbed us and Jake hid in the bathroom.

I went to answer the door and it was an old lady, who was selling ‘amakipkip’ and I bought five packets of them, anyways they are our favorite. We have some things in common, me and Jake. He likes ‘ amakikip’ and I like ‘amakipkip’. Those type of things.

The reason I agreed to be Jake’s girlfriend is because yesterday I found out that the reason I’m sick is because she’s been injecting me with something to kind of damage my nerves or something. So I want to have fun with someone before it gets worse. And I’m trying to find out why she was injecting me with that.