That moment kept ringing in my head like a broken record and I loved it. The only problem is that she didn’t want to talk about it and she always changed the subject. I didn’t know anymore the person I have feelings for doesn’t want me. In my head I think it love but it was maybe lust? First time with my best friend is so embarassing. Until it happened again and Saint walked in. I thought he would go crazy but he asked to join. Johnelle agreed but I was disgusted and left. It was really lust.

This whole identity thing was new to me so I researched and found out I’m bisexual. I loved Johnelle and Saint but it seemed like they were lusting for me so I had to let them go. It was painful and to make things worst they became an item. Was this planned? There beef wasn’t it obvious? I asked them and Johnelle denied but admitted having feelings for him. Saint said the same thing. Hearing that broke me but atleast they were honest with me.

This two beings helped me discover me and who I am. Who thought I was gay or bi? Not even me. But there was one thing to do now and that is to tell mom how I feel.