Tackling this two lifes was getting to hard for me. Fake smiles,chuckles and giggles. I needed a way out of this. I want to be famous but mom is my priority. I didn’t want to finish school and being in grade 9 meant I’m finishing soon. Atleast Saint was there for me . Oh Saint my boyfriend is the love of my life who I met at an academic party. He’s a jerk but every girl think he’s cute so what would go wrong? He was there for me which made Johnelle a little jealous. “He’s a nuisance iyhoo!” she always screamed.

I wanted to make mama proud but how? She wanted me to be a doctor and I wanted to be a famous rapper. Mom or me? It’s was too much until my mind took it seriously and they diagnosed me with depression. Mom thought it was my siblings but it was her. She thought of my future but it was taking a toll on me. She was a nurse so she wanted me to do better than her. It just too much.

When I thought I saw and felt it all , mom sustained an injury so we all had to get jobs. I got one as a part time waitress and it paid fairly. Everything was going well but I was still stressed a lot.