Unlike the rest, I did not feed you to the wild,
Yes, at times I would scream regretfully
Yet I had accepted that you would be mine
Forever.
The day you came into this world
The thunderstorm was like never before,
You came into this world and made no sound,
You came into this world with no tears
In your innocent brown eyes.
I should have known
You did not belong here.
The moment I held you in my arms,
I knew you were special,
I knew you were nothing like the rest,
For you greeted me with a broad smile.
I couldn’t take my eyes off you,
You left your mark on me,
So I hoped to keep you by my side
For eternity.
You were an angel in my eyes,
A bundle of perfection,
The beginning of my happiness.
I would sit by your side for hours
And rock your cradle with hopes to
Make you feel as if you were swinging
Uncontrollably on a chandelier.
Whenever you reached out for my hand
I made sure that I was always there
To hold your little fist.
Where are you now?
Is heaven a more deserving place
Of your presence?
Perhaps being the reason
That you closed your eyes and
Never opened them again.
Was your greatest wish to be anywhere but
With me?
Perhaps that is the reason you allowed your
Little heart to stop beating
So that you could hopelessly lay
Beneath me; the surface that will
Forever be too great for your tiny chest.
What am I without your little fist?