Yesterday I had a dream

I keep looking at the door

Wanting for a miracle

to happen thinking that

you would walk back to

the door

But the door only looks at me

with sadness as it knows

You won’t ever come back

I’m just waiting for rain to rain

so hopeless and ridiculous

I’m a clown on my soul

My eyes swollen like a pregnant woman ‘s feet

Waiting and not charging my body but I knew you were gone

You kissed me goodbye and

Went to your car

Yesterday I had a dream we was family woke up to reality

My once big five family was now four Our guard was gone

Head of the house was gone

Our rib was gone

Our strength was gone

Our caregiver was gone

He left a dark black sorrow

And navy pain

My heart chased your Mercedes It ran like a cheetah

Chasing after you but I couldn’t match your Mercedes I Know

I had to let go my brain had to erase It had to be born again

So I forget you

Yesterday I had a dream we was family woke up to reality

Our head of the house was gone

Our guard was gone

Our rib was gone

Our caregiver was gone

Woke up to reality

I stopped waiting

I learnt to leave dead soul walking

I slowly accepted the Cookie

Had crumbled

You were gone and not coming back

Yesterday I had a dream we was family woke up to reality

It hurts