Dear my loved ones

I just want to tell you that I tried

I tried to keep up with the new me

But I’m failing each time I do

All I do now is hurt a lot of you

While I say I love you

This new me has really gone further than I thought

I wake up some mornings and found myself in this nightmare I’m in

I’m sinking in depression and anxiety

No one understands me and the pain I’m facing every day

And also I don’t blame you 

I also hate this me and wish I had time to reverse all this 

Time to rewind and rub off the scars I’ve made for myself and you