I never thought this could happen to me,my father,my family.

Mama you left pains in me,i never thought one of the days i will be receiving condolences messages.i thought those were happening only in the movies.

You left without saying goodbye.you left me while i still need you the most.
You left while i just had the baby.u didnt even get to know your grand daughter. You knew her just for 2 weeks then you left.

You left the old man.i even ran out of words when i look at him,yes hes trying to be strong but he is not stronger.

U use to be my shoulder to cry on.not that i blame you but only if you prepared me first to learn to live without you.

You could have seen how it felt like organising your funeral,you could have seen how people looked at us as orphans,you could have seen your own family failing to come and send you off apparently they were scared of covid 19.

You could imagine me your last born having to choose your casket.it was really not nice,infact it was horibble.

You could have seen those who acted to care much about you they never made it to your funeral.

Dear mama am so broken,am just walking without a direction.am just speaking but my voice is not coming out.

During the day i pretend to be okay just for the day to pass.during the night i fail to sleep,my pillow can testify for me.
My pillow is used for getting wet with tears every night.

U left a pain in me.my first born always ask about you.what am i gonna say to a 5years old child.will she understand if i tell her that you are no more?
If only you can hear me,see the pain am going through.

Am struggling even to delete your contacts numbers.apparently i feel like am deleting your memory.

Ur depature left me with a broken heart,unfuctional soul,tears in my eyes.only if you prepared me first to leave without you.