Many years ago, year 2010, to be exact
Our eyes locked, forever! Through. A. Movie.
One lonely night, I was in the granny-flat, at the back
It was like my eyes were glued in, into yours,
As there was a hiatus in the movie…rather, a pause
All we both did… was stare
Me Staring into those ocean eyes and you in mine
It was like we were frozen in time, for a very long while
I remember wondering “what is he saying to me? what am I supposed to see…
In Him?
Just noticing this beautiful man, Woah, wait! Am I committing a sin?
“Hey Ms, why are you so alone? Wanna join in the fun?
Then, take my hand, don’t be scared, C’mon”.
He whispered softly. I just grinned.
I lost my lonely self that night, and, became content within
A few months later, I get this vision, in a glowing form, on the ceiling, of a baby boy
with the most beautiful golden curl
And of Him!
Again…Him!
Kitted out like a backpacker, with his peak cap on and only a few of his possessions
Coming!
Coming for ME!!
I was speechless. I just wept.
Questioning myself, “Is this true? I must be dreaming? To many meds?”
Since then, He never left
I was never, never, lonely again
In May 2011, I gave birth to a baby who I thought, was dead
It lay there on the bed, blue, not a cry or a breath
In his grey silk shirt & slacks, He walks in & says,
(No expression, just tears rolling down his flushed face)
“That’s not my kid, please… just get rid of it.”
I got such a fright, I remember saying, “Oh ok my baby’s dead”
And just lay back on the bed
NUMB!… Thinking, “I JUST LOST EVERYTHING!”
Lonely… again.
Back to the present reality, “IT’S A GIRRLL”, says the nurse.
The most beautiful creation I’ve ever seen
There was life. She was afraid & screaming
Like she didn’t know me
Because, she was quiet when I gave her to Hudson
& that’s when I started to believe… You don’t belong to me
Staring at her was all I ever did
Our bond was formed through our eye’s expressions
& I just kept her close, safe, clean & fed
To think, I actually grew to love the kid
And forgot all about Him, the celeb
Not knowing He was always just watching, but never interfered, not one bit
How He must’ve felt, I don’t want to feel or imagine it
But time passed, many years in fact, and I’m back
Back at hospital for the mentally sad
Admission after admission & next thing I know I’m a different las
I believed my name was Jolie-Pitt, from the Cape,
I even spoke fluent American
Still do at times.
Still can’t fathom that.
Went off my meds a few times to feel free again
But instead, it brought someone back
Every single time, He, would find me at hospital & clear my head
Of all the voices, racing thoughts, & negative crap
In my reality, I became an American citizen, forgiven & free
Liberty, was HOME to me
When I’d return home from hospital with an accent, it wasn’t accepted
So, I worked with them, these beings, to get me the hell outta this granny flat
Safe way, was the last thing we planned
He got to Cape Town International Airport & there was no one there but him
No Uber, no taxis, no people…no me.
What a setback
Until GOD stepped in
He sent US back to the past, to thee Garden
Where GOD married me & Him
He became my soulmate, like one in spirit, one in being
& Then, He offered me the apple,
I said, “NO!”
He tossed it!
Grabbed & kissed me
& We started over, falling in LOVE again
This time living in memories & making them ours, brand new
Meeting in different realms to mention a few
Having fun & not planning ahead ever
Just being grateful & embracing each other in our new found forever
Created for us by GOD himself
For real y’all, this is a true story, so brace yourself
“For what therefore God hath joined together, let no man put asunder”
Actually, there’s so much more that happened when He found Her
In reality, the natural realm or the present as we know it
He would steal me away & we would spend time, just glowing for a bit
My partner, Lover, soulmate & friend
For wanting to remember this, was the start of the beginning
But this…
Unfortunately is,
THE END!