The news of your passing reached out to me this morning.

I thought they were joking when they said that you are no more.

Firstly I want to say that I am sorry.

I am sorry that you will never get the chance to raise your son.

I know how much you loved him.

You were always happy and making jokes

And we missed the sadness in your face and voice.

We never saw that you were bleeding,

You made sure you wipe the blood in your wounds before we could notice.

You even wiped out your tears before anyone could notice you are crying.

I am sorry we never noticed any of this.

You really tried but I guess it got too much for you.

We have cried so much for you.

But no amount of tears we cried could have bought you back to us.

May you get the peace you were seeking for while you were still here.

I have never met you in person.

But from now on I will refer you as my star.

Because I will be able to look up in the sky and see you.

I am really proud of you and I love you.

Maybe one day we will meet in heaven,

I will give you a big hug and tell you how much I wanted you to live.

How much your online page saved me when I was not well.

Please tell your mom one of your jokes in heaven,

I hope she gives you a big hug.

I know how much you have longed for it.

Rest in peace brother.

Hopefully we will meet again.

This cannot be the end.

Maybe there is life after death.

And I hope there will be you at the end.

I love you so much.

To: Siphelele Qoqoshe