I breathe heavily

And my thoughts all seem so heavenly

Everything is above average.

I switch my thoughts with one leverage.

Got this one girl of my dreams who could be the death of me.

Or maybe one day I’ll seem like the type who sips on lean.

I will be known for all this bad stuff.

Getting into trouble being seemingly buff.

Truth be told I’m a mama’s boy.

Fishing out to be somebody’s toy.

Rob some stores to get my girl some denim.

Behind closed doors, my bros inject me with venom.

For some time it hits and I wanna relax and let it in.

I let it throw me on the ground and hits me hard, then it pins me.

1,2,3… I feel a shot of energy

3,2,1… I feel my heart stop beating me.

I see all darkness, like how it is when I’ve lost it.

Inhaling through some gas mask.

And it knocks me out dead fast.

Wake up to the sound of my mother’s cries.

The old lady has been here, I know someday she gon die

Cause of my tactics and my recklessness to get my pain to subside.

Truth is I have had it all so why do I go outside?

My ma is all I have and the truth is I’m all she has.

If it was long ago, woulda put a bullet through her husband’s ass.

Might die from these drugs. 

Police are gonna find me and squash me like a bug

Gotta change this lifestyle quick but the day y’all read this it will be the end.

Now my soul troubled, and now my spirit I’ll lend.